Total eclipse of the heart

Found this by googling "Total eclipse of the heart"

“Total eclipse of the heart” is a song by Tyler, but I am listening to the Glee Club version. My cousin sent me the song file two days ago, while sending some other files through Bluetooth to my laptop. After she was gone, I started to play the various tracks she has given me and played this song after trying two to three songs and from then on have been listening to it seamlessly.

Why am I talking about it now? As one of my co-workers asked me about my facebook status, the song started to play inside my head and it’s still playing. I can hear the singer singing very clearly (inside my head of course). Lol, some days ago I was wondering whether I was going mad or got some kind of mental illness/disorder/syndrome etc. well, it is better to treat the problem before it gets out of hand and I go completely nuts. So, I did some research and found not much threatening news. I have got mild to moderate depression. Well, the site advised me to talk to a doctor or a therapist, but of course the sites would say so, or else it would irresponsible for them. I got to know what I needed to know, not a serious illness, I found my focal problem issue and thus I am prepared to deal with it. I don’t think my depression is so severe to see a doctor, but I certainly do have a problem and I don’t do anything I might need a doctor for cure. It’s like residing in the grey area from where you can go to the black or the white portion.

Reading my own writing above, just realized it doesn’t at all look written by some one in distress rather it looks like some Hypochondriac full on about his/her mental health.

Enough of the whining, let’s move on to some constructive thoughts.

I need to make a to-do list now or anytime before six, as I can’t do anything on the list before 6 pm. But even after 6, all I can do is finish some phone calls on the way back home as I won’t be doing anything in the car. After reaching home, rest depends on the energy I may have or may not have. As I have woken up at 8 in the morning with only 2 hours sleep in the very morning (night was over before I got to sleep), I can’t make any estimates right now. Although I know what exactly happen, it is divided in two parts. Both the options have 50% chances and are mutually exclusive. If I go home and feel sleepy, then for some unknown, unwanted, unanticipated reason I have to stay awake. On the other hand, if I go for sleeping then I will lie awake in the bed as long as it becomes unbearable to lie down like that and after hours I will sit up from the bed with a heavy feeling, throbbing head.

Procastination...Depression and Disorders!! ;-)

I didn’t know that procrastination is related to depression and they are certain types of procrastinating people. I can find one or more friends in each category!! Well, we are the Procastinators!!



Source: world wide web


So now, how depression and procrastination are related?? It’s been said (in about.com, they say their articles are medical reviewed) that depression puts us through some physical and medical conditions/symptoms and we adopt procrastination as way to deal with this conditions. Hmmphh!! Well-said!! But, I thought (prior to reading the article) procrastination is a habit in some people. There is a category “habitual” procrastinator, which explains just the thing I thought. But is the habitual procrastinator also a victim(!) of depression?

Source: Blurburger

Let’s see, I am not done with the article yet.

The four types of procrastination styles can also overlap in an individual. The categories as explained in the article from about.com:
“Self-Doubt - These people feel there are rigid standards about how thing ought to be done and they fear they will fail. They second-guess themselves and delay taking action.



 Discomfort Dodging - This person avoids activities that will cause them distress, discomfort or anxiety. Rather ironically, the act of dodging the activity doesn't make it go away so tensions mount because of this avoidance.
Guilt-Driven - The person feels guilt over tasks undone, but rather than correct the original lack of action continues to procrastinate in order to not face up to the guilt feelings.
Habitual - The person has procrastinated so many times, it becomes an ingrained response. The person no longer thinks about why they do it, they feel it's just a part of themselves. It becomes an automatic response to say, "This is too hard", "I'm too tired", or to laugh it off as a character flaw.”

There are many remedies, well, the procrastinators are also aware of it. But I don’t think they are interested in the solutions. Even if they are, they will procrastinate in doing the simple task of just clicking on a web link. But I just want to relay just one advice: that is “KISS”, which means Keep It Simple, Stupid!

Sorry I won’t be quoting any more from the article, if you want to read it, go find it yourself!! I know, you won’t, ‘cause if you are reading this, then you must be in my circle of people and then must be a procrastinator too. So chances are you won’t be reading the article in the “near or far” future.

Source: Richard Wilkinson

Talking about depression, depression is not just being sad. It’s way more than that and can affect physically. So, I was studying depression in the web. Depression can be also divided into many types like: Major depression- lack of interest in everything, Atypical depression- outside world events control their moods, Psychotic depression- people start to see and hear imaginary stuffs (negative), Dysthimia-they are depressed all life long and need medication, and Manic depression- which includes mood shifts of depression to mania and have extremely high rate of suicide.


The other day I was studying about personality disorders, and other disorders. There are: PTSD- Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (pheww..i remember the name), Anxiety disorder, Bi-polar disorder, Borderline disorder, Manic episodes and many more. “Reading the list”-alone could be really frustrating, they all sound same and you would have a hard time differing one from the other. Well, at least I did.
Bi-polar and Borderline are personality disorders, but their symptoms overlap with each other and also with depression, thus making it difficult to diagnose and treat the patient.

I guess now i should stop writing about depressions and stuff, it's really depressing.. ;-)