Total eclipse of the heart

Found this by googling "Total eclipse of the heart"

“Total eclipse of the heart” is a song by Tyler, but I am listening to the Glee Club version. My cousin sent me the song file two days ago, while sending some other files through Bluetooth to my laptop. After she was gone, I started to play the various tracks she has given me and played this song after trying two to three songs and from then on have been listening to it seamlessly.

Why am I talking about it now? As one of my co-workers asked me about my facebook status, the song started to play inside my head and it’s still playing. I can hear the singer singing very clearly (inside my head of course). Lol, some days ago I was wondering whether I was going mad or got some kind of mental illness/disorder/syndrome etc. well, it is better to treat the problem before it gets out of hand and I go completely nuts. So, I did some research and found not much threatening news. I have got mild to moderate depression. Well, the site advised me to talk to a doctor or a therapist, but of course the sites would say so, or else it would irresponsible for them. I got to know what I needed to know, not a serious illness, I found my focal problem issue and thus I am prepared to deal with it. I don’t think my depression is so severe to see a doctor, but I certainly do have a problem and I don’t do anything I might need a doctor for cure. It’s like residing in the grey area from where you can go to the black or the white portion.

Reading my own writing above, just realized it doesn’t at all look written by some one in distress rather it looks like some Hypochondriac full on about his/her mental health.

Enough of the whining, let’s move on to some constructive thoughts.

I need to make a to-do list now or anytime before six, as I can’t do anything on the list before 6 pm. But even after 6, all I can do is finish some phone calls on the way back home as I won’t be doing anything in the car. After reaching home, rest depends on the energy I may have or may not have. As I have woken up at 8 in the morning with only 2 hours sleep in the very morning (night was over before I got to sleep), I can’t make any estimates right now. Although I know what exactly happen, it is divided in two parts. Both the options have 50% chances and are mutually exclusive. If I go home and feel sleepy, then for some unknown, unwanted, unanticipated reason I have to stay awake. On the other hand, if I go for sleeping then I will lie awake in the bed as long as it becomes unbearable to lie down like that and after hours I will sit up from the bed with a heavy feeling, throbbing head.